(I admit at some point I lost my inspiration and was constantly asking Nilla for pointers... Woops, but I gained it back... Some of it. )The Understanding I smiled, feeling all the care of the world slip away. Earlier troubles seemed like nothing now, I felt like I could go on forever just happily in this moment.
But of course, when I turned to the forest, I slowed my dance. Eyes were peering through, watching. I recognized the form of the shadow. Arehe was watching our celebration. I slowed to a stop as he walked away. My carefree feeling slipped away and everything seemed real again. Too real.
Nasya looked at me and sent.
What's wrong? I can't, I'm sorry. There's something I need to do. I raced into the forest to follow behind Arehe. My legs and arms were getting tired and sore, but I didn't care. I had something I needed to do. I soon caught up with Arehe and reached for him.
Arehe! I sent to him, he turned around and I touched a hand against his arm. He was so much taller than Beyond... Which meant he was way more taller than me. Though, my height was between a high one and Gentlestream's, who was from go-back decent, I still didn't even reach his shoulder.
What is it this time? He raised an eyebrow.
When our eyes met the air caught in my throat. He had such clear icy blue eyes, they were very piercing and cold. I had to remember what I was going to say, but when I did, it blurted out in a rush.
“I know you may not like this, but I can't help but want to know you,†I looked down, concentrating on my words. “I want to be friends with you.â€
He scoffed and turned around. He began walking again and I followed.
“I'm serious!†I called after him. “You've not many friends, from what I see, and I find you... Interesting. You seem... lonely.â€
“I'm not.†He chuckled without amusement.
“You seem like it,†I gripped his arm and looked up at him. “Your sendings are so cold. You don't want any body to get close to you.â€
“Then why are you trying?â€
“Because I want to.†I smiled up at him. “I want to see you smile!â€
“Why?†His eyebrows drew together. He moved away and my hand fell back to my side. “Why are you doing this? To me, it seems like you're the lonely one.â€
That sentence stabbed into my heart making me cringe. Tears were threatening to fill my eyes. “Maybe I am.†I whispered. “After all, I'm the one who keeps following you...â€
I seemed to be talking to myself now. He just stared, listening with one eyebrow raised. “I used to have Beyond and Nasya... But they've gone with their own mates. I used to have Carah but I couldn't... She didn't have what I needed.â€
I wiped my eyes. Why was I crying in front of him? My paint was going to get ruined...
Arehe shifted in front of me. I cleared my throat and looked up at him. He seemed... Uneasy. “I'm sorry, I should go...â€
He didn't say anything, he didn't move. I touched his hand and it was warm... No hot. He was burning up. “Arehe...?†I whispered. He looked down at me but didn't seem to see me. He looked like he was trying to focus. “Arehe, are you alright?â€
“F... Fine.†He mumbled, his deep voice seemed to be more hoarse than before. He took a step back and tried to turn. He was swaying in an awkward way, so I moved closer in case he needed to be steadied.
His eyes darted to the trees around us, as he put a hand on his forehead seeming to try and steady himself that way.
“Arehe,†I said nervously. “What's wrong?â€
His body seemed to be heating up more, I put a hand to his cheek to see if he could focus on me. But he kept watching the forest around us. He sent to seemingly nothing, I knew because it was an open sending. You don't belong here! At first I thought it was aimed at me, but seeing him focused away from us proved otherwise. I looked around to see if there was someone with us but I saw nothing. His next sending hurt, not because of what he was saying, but because of the force behind it. Almost a black-sending.
You chose death! You didn't want anything to do with me! Suddenly he picked up his spear.
You won't have to choose again! He threw his spear into the darkness, hitting nothing but the underbrush of the forest. He staggered then collapsed, I tried holding him up but my strength failed me, I fell to my knees with him.
“A... Arehe?†I whispered, fully panicked. He breathed, though it was weak panting, his eyes were closed and he seemed barely conscious. I moved his golden hair from his face and his skin burned under my fingers. I looked around, wondering who could help me get him to a healer. No one. The Outcasts were at the celebration, not that many of them would help to begin with.
Maybe the Timeless? But where would I find them... Many are already in their furs or having a celebration by themselves. I had to do this myself. I slowly stood, I put Arehe's arm over my shoulder and lifted carefully. I was still weak from the accident but I tried. Somehow, I felt this was my fault. He should have gone to a healer long before now. Was it from the bear attack that made him like this?
I pulled him up, he registered this fact and used what strength he had to stand up. Most of his weight was leaning on me, but I could handle it. I breathed out slowly, shakily. I looked up at him, his head lolled on his shoulders and his eyes were fluttering.
“Oh, Arehe,†I choked. He lifted his head a bit but then it fell again. “We're going to get you to a healer!â€
“Nnn... o.†He grumbled.
No healer? “We have to do something! You're a mess!â€
“D.... Den.†Den? He wanted to go back to his den to rest.
“I can't go up the cliffs to your den!†I said hastily. “You can't go to your den by yourself either!â€
Then an idea hit me. I shifted him so we could walk. “Hold on, Arehe.†I whispered as we made our way to my tree-den.